However the thought of telling my family makes me numb. If it wasn’t for them I would have lost it. I slowly came to terms with it thanks to the wonderful friends I had the courage to tell. At first I despised myself and I ended up in counselling, which lead to a face-to-face confrontation with my mum, telling her I would rather not be living. I found out roughly when I was 14, and for the past three years it has been ruining me.
Being gay has easily been the most daunting thing of my life. The dilemma I am a 17-year-old gay man who doesn’t have the courage to live how I want.